Hello, I miss you …

Finally, I’m admitting. Admitting that I miss you. Admitting that I hated the way I wanted to be the one walking away when really, you walked out on me quietly without a word of warning. I missed you ever since. Don’t know why I had that stone wall placed around my heart.

I miss you. Miss your reassuring smile. Miss your soft hands over mine. Miss your fingers crossed with mine. Miss your palms resting on the blades of my shoulders.

Miss you, love. Miss your fresh laundered t-shirts and over sized overalls. Miss your scent hovering over me as I wait for my lunch. Miss your messages during the empty breaks. Miss your calls over a cup of hot soup. Miss your voice when I needed to hear a familiar chuckle. Miss your feverish temple wet with anxiety.

I miss you and I love you. I miss having you close by. I miss having you just a phone call away. I miss the empty promises of immediacy and support. I miss the broken down lies that made it still so sweet.

Miss you. Painfully, missing you. Want to fly out, back into the space where you once dwelt. And lie down on the pavement we both once walked upon. Maybe the wind would take me away. Maybe the dust will bury me deep underneath. Cos sometimes, I’d rather lose my breath than to have you out of reach.

Do you still think of me?

posted by charlieboy at 7:57 AM